Showing posts with label comfort. Show all posts
Showing posts with label comfort. Show all posts

Sunday, October 23, 2011

Dilemma

The first day at a new job always brings up the question of what do I wear?  I know what the dress code says that I can wear, however is it acceptable on the first day to wear something comfortable and casual? Of course, the other part of that question is if I wear something that is more professional, less casual, will I be over dressing?  Tomorrow is my first day at the new job.  Well, actually, it's my first day but I won't be in my home office.  I will be in Austin participating in a new employee orientation.  So I imagine I will be around the big bosses, instead of my direct supervisor. As I go over this question, this dilemma, in my mind, I'm really considering wearing slacks instead of jeans...
I think trying to figure out what is appropriate to wear the first day, when the dress code varies depending on the job and location of the job, is one of the most difficult things to deal with.

Wednesday, October 19, 2011

Today

For just a second I want to imagine that I am that person who I always thought I would be.  Were that a reality, however, I am just not sure who I would be.  While this seems like circular rationalization, it really is just a reflection of the chaos that seems to be a part of everyday life.
For just a second, let me indulge in this concept of knowing who I am, knowing what I want, and being that person that is confident that things will be as they should be.  Am I the only one that has had these kinds of thoughts, wonderings, wishes, ponderings...?
In all actuality, as crazy as my life is 99 percent of the time, I am not willing to change my experiences, although I must say, some experiences have not been as enjoyable as others.  Take for instance my decision, and what I believe was God pushing me, to find a different job.  I applied for several months to dozens, and I mean multiple dozens, of potential opportunities.  Within that time I had more denial letters than I had interviews, which in and of itself seems a bit odd at times, yet I continued to search and apply with a faith that this is what I am supposed to do and when the position becomes available that God has intended for me to have, I would then have a new job.
Then came the day that I interviewed for a position with Child Protective Services, and was told through an inside source, that I was chosen for the position however there was now a hiring freeze in effect. Once more, God is teaching me He is in control.  Three months later, I am now, finally, getting ready to leave my comfort zone and begin a new career.  Which brings me back to my experiences and how they have shaped me over my lifetime.
To begin again; to start over; to be at the bottom of the rank and file can be intimidating.  To learn something new, even though it can be exciting, is at a minimum, a case of butterflies in the tummy.  The unknown is more often a hazy shadow just out of reach of the sun's rays, but I still seem drawn to it. 
As I am cleaning out the two offices I occupy I wonder how many of these things will I be ablet to take to my new position.  I try to picture what my old office will look like with its new occupant.  Sure this may seem unimportant but it is the last step of leaving. 
I have 2 days left with a department that I have given 11 years to and then, on Monday, it will be an entirely new experience to go to work.  I am excited to move on, and at the same time, am experiencing a bit of grief, perhaps if nothing else, for leaving my comfort zone and leaping into a new experience.
But I am not worried.  God put me on this path to this new experience and while I do not know what it will be like, He does.
"The steps of a good man are ordered by the Lord: and he delighteth in his way."  Psalm 37:23